Apparently, I’m Latine

But that part of my heritage is lost.

So I feel a little disingenuous…

How can I claim what I do not know?

But I’m still curious,

And find myself wondering,

About the past and the lives of who came before me

Choices, and decisions, and doubts, and interests

Crazy that my being is defined by a history I’ll never truly know

Its both frustrating and scary, and honestly unfair

Well life has never been fair

So I take my longing as leverage,

To discover and rediscover,

Lineage lines of my dad and of his dad’s dad

Out of touch—

That’s what I am, with a culture my ancestors knew well

I am determined one day I’ll visit

Can feel it in my unsettled soul 

That I’ll find comfort in a place family before me, 

Had once called home.

Cuba.

MAYA FOSTER is a doctoral student in biomedical engineering and can be reached at maya.foster@yale.edu.